What is my being? My being is a thought of my being. I am the being. Am I being in my thoughts or am I being outside my thought? The thought becomes my being and I become my thought. Is being the thought of life? Or is the thought of life is the being?
Whether I am? If I am, then I am a thought of I am. And if I am not, then there is only a thought of I am. What is my being? What is existing as my being? Who is existing in my being? What is this presence of my being?
Am I the being? The expression of ‘am I the being’ is not being because there is a gap between expression and the being. Being is expressed in thousands of ways in nature. In the universe, the being is expressed every moment.
The moment is part of the time so there is no moment it is only the understanding of humanity that there ought to be some moment which is now which we go past to make it past so that there is something in the future which is the hope of mankind. Between past future and present, the moment is defined. Past and future are thoughts they are not. The moment also is not. Is the moment there?
In fact, if you go and ask yourself the question of whether the moment is there, you will understand that moment is also not there. Man is not living. He is thinking. He is living the thought of thinking. So anything that a man does is a thought. Do thoughts make him what he becomes? He is being in thoughts.
What is it being in the thought? Being in the thought is the life that we are not living and thoughts are postponing it in future. Thoughts hit you. Thoughts hit your mind and make you miserable and make your life miserable. Thoughts are mere dead words that are already lifeless. Lifeless images of the past are projected. Dead thoughts cannot enliven your life.
Where do these thoughts come from? Thoughts come from all over. Our mind is the mother of all thoughts. Storage of mind has millions of information so thoughts are manifestations of that storage.
The whole earth is a world of thoughts. Because of thoughts, we wage wars, we fight each other. Our religions are our thoughts. We call our religion the most sacred and of others irreligious and sacrilegious.
Humanity is overwhelmed with different organised religions. Humanity has a big treasure of thoughts. Crowds of thoughts keep arriving because we are receptive to them. We invite them. We want them. Thoughts are impotent to be potent thoughts need your energy to be born. I am Hindu, I am Muslim, I am Buddhist are only thoughts and not some godly presence but mere positioning.
‘Nanak in Japuji says ‘soche soch naa hovaee je soche lakh var’. Thought will never be what it aims to be even one thought it hundred thousand times. Thought will not be the actuality. That which is the mind, thoughts keep coming in cycles and create the illusion. Humanity is also a thought of humans about themselves. Humanity operates on illusion. Illusion is the hallmark of thoughts. Things, vegetation, animals, humans are born with an intrinsic presence of being in them. In that presence of the being one lives with the flow of life.
Contrarily human mind is thinking consistently. Thinking has become a new faculty in man and the human mind has become an archive of information. Life is a flow and thinking revolves outside of it.
What are thoughts? Thoughts are non-fulfilment of human desires. Desires create a gap between humans. Thoughts are processed from archives of mind. In fact, the mind is a gap, the gap between the being and un-being. Therefore, thoughts are generated when being is lost in the un-being an artificial existence is felt thoughts are bred.
What am I? Am I a dream or a story or a scheme or a plan? Or am I an idea? What am I? if you look at yourself you would find that you are made of some dreams, some stories, some plans and some ideas. You find them to be your reality. You feel it is the reality—the reality of your life and you have to live it. Therefore, it has to be essentially illusory.
Who is the one on who this illusion is happening? Life has become an idea a thought. The thought we have understood as life. Whether we need to come out of this thought? Thoughts birth thoughts. New thoughts birth newer thoughts.
Thoughts are in fact questions. Questions breed questions. You ask questions and new questions are reproduced. Questions birth questions. The question in itself gives the answer in the form of a new question. Questions do not get answered but new questions are raised by answers. Answers to questions are questions in fact.
Revelations that Buddha, Jesus, Krishna made were the experiences awakened ones delivered to this world. But new thoughts sprouted on those revelations which in centuries bred jungles of thoughts. The heart of revelations lay buried under jungles of thoughts. Edifices built by complicated logicians usurped their tenderness. Real religion is buried underneath. Religion or ideas or stories or plans, in end they are thoughts in fact. Thoughts inaugurate new questions. They birth new dreams and new sources of dreams unfailingly. You are always enthused and stimulated by thoughts. You think that you will find a new dimension of God through thoughts. But answers never come, questions do.
The answer will happen on its own. The answer is not your thought. What Nanak says ‘Soche soch naa hovai..’ means by thinking thought the thought is thought, but the answer does not come by thoughts. Where is the answer? The answer is inside. The question is outside. Thought knocks on your mind. Mind is outside of you. And you are inside. Who is outside? The question is outside. The mind can answer a question as a question because it has not met the answerer. You are mere questions and thoughts. And who is inside then? The one about whom the thoughts are thought, someone who is the energy to think thoughts. That energy you give any name, all names assigned by you are mere questions.
You won’t get answers to this riddle you will end up farming more riddles. No one else has answers for you. No one will give you the answer. You have to find the answer yourself. You have to meet the answer of your life.
Come inside. Meet your presence by being your presence. Be your presence. The answer will descend on you. You will get the answer. You are the answer.
Your presence is the truth of life. You are always be caught in thoughts to become unhappily unhappy wanting to be happy. All situations are in your hands because thoughts are in your hands.
You are the answer to the question of life. Therefore to live life, you have to be in life in the first place and be the life. You are the life you don’t have to live life. You are it. You are what you are! Be the presence of life.
The author is a spiritual teacher and he can be contacted at arunavalokitta@gmail.com